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[dumbjockenergy]

That's just who Catra is, though. She's been like that since we were little.

[ She runs a hand through her hair, taking a deep breath. ]

If...If she felt that way, wouldn't she have told me?

[sparklequeen]

Maybe she doesn't get it yet. It took you until now to figure it out.

[ Glimmer pauses. She also knows the feeling of anguish and guilt that comes with trying, failing, and doing more harm than good. Even if Catra probably doesn't have that exact emotional arc... or maybe she does? ]

Or she thinks she's not good enough for you? Or that maybe you wouldn't take her back after all the Horde stuff?

[dumbjockenergy]

[ She sinks back onto the couch, face in her hands. ]

Catra could never be not good enough for me. She's Catra. It's...

[ Oh.

Oh. ]

...Glimmer. What do I do?

[sparklequeen]

[ Glimmer reaches out to give Adora's shoulder a squeeze. This is completely unknown territory for her--how does she make this work? What does she say?]

I don't know, Adora. I've never... this isn't something I really know how to handle, either.

[ She tries to smile. ]

No matter what I'm here for you, though.

[dumbjockenergy]

[ She leans into Glimmer's touch, moving to rest more against her on the couch.

Seeking out comfort is never easy for Adora. ]

I can't tell her, Glimmer.

[sparklequeen]

You don't have to. It's...

[ Glimmer nestles closer. It's instinct, almost. Moving close to comfort her friend, though she does her best not to touch skin to skin. ]

It's something you can do when you're ready. When you feel right. I think it's good to know how you feel, though.

[dumbjockenergy]

It will never feel right. She would never feel the same, and I'd just... I'd make everything worse. After everything.

[sparklequeen]

I mean...

[ Glimmer sighs. What can she say here? She doesn't really know Catra that well. Not the way Adora does. ]

I think you have to have some hope, Adora.

[dumbjockenergy]

I'm not...

[ "worthy of her love" Adora wants to say. "Worthy of anyone's." ]

Everyone in Bright Moon made it sound like falling in love was supposed to be something amazing. This is kind of awful.

[sparklequeen]

[ Glimmer reaches up to run her hands through Adora's hair, careful not to touch the scalp. It's so hard. She wants to comfort her friend and she can't even give her a real hug. ]

Love is complicated, sometimes. I dunno. I wish I could tell you what to do. It's... I know it's a lot. Love is beautiful, but can also be a lot of work, right?

[dumbjockenergy]

[ it's times like these that make Adora aware of just how touch-starved she really is, even now. she leans into Glimmer's touch, closing hr eyes and sighing. ]

I'd say it's more terrifying than beautiful.

[sparklequeen]

I think it's both.

[ Glimmer lets out a long, slow breath. She's quiet for a long, long few moments, not quite sure what else to say. Then: ]

I'm scared, too.

[dumbjockenergy]

You are? Of what?

[sparklequeen]

Telling someone I love them and them not feeling the same way. Or at least... not loving me the way I love them?

[dumbjockenergy]

Anyone would love you, Glimmer. They'd be lucky to be loved by you.

[sparklequeen]

And that's how I feel about you, too. Dummy. You're amazing. Anyone would be lucky to have you love them.

[ Glimmer shrugs helplessly. ]

But... I'm still scared to tell some people I love them even if you say that. I think it's scary for everyone.

[ She draws her knees up a little closer to her chest, curling inwards. ]

It makes you feel vulnerable when you open yourself up like that, no matter who you are.

[dumbjockenergy]

Is there someone in particular you're worried about telling? If this is about Bow...

[sparklequeen]

[ Glimmer coughs, cheeks turning a bright pink almost instantly. ]

I...

[ She squints at Adora. ]

How are you so bad at figuring out your own feelings when you just nail me with the first shot?

[dumbjockenergy]

I mean, it's kinda obvious.

[sparklequeen]

It is not!

[ Okay. Maybe it is. She sulks for a moment, leaning against Adora. ]

He's just. One of my best friends and I don't want to ruin that if he doesn't, you know. Feel the same way. He's not even here so it's not like it matters right now, but...

Ugh.

[dumbjockenergy]

I don't think you need to worry about that, honestly.

[ is

is this what it feels like to be the 'how is it not obvious' one? ]

[sparklequeen]

Of course I need to worry about that!

[dumbjockenergy]

I really don't think you do, Glim.

[ She puts a hand on her shoulder reassuringly. ]

I think Bow feels the same way. But even if he doesn't, do you really think he'd stop being your friend or be weird about it because you like him?

[sparklequeen]

Maybe! I don't know!

[ UGHHHH. Glimmer drags her hands down her face. ]

He's been my best friend since we were kids, Adora! I might mess it up!

[dumbjockenergy]

You're not going to mess it up. Bow cares about you too much for that, okay?