[Ellie can feel the sense of rejection and disappointment just as acutely as if she were the one in Glimmer's shoes. It doesn't make any of this easy to swallow -- but hopefully, Glimmer can feel just how hard it was to say. How much she wanted to give a different answer.
How much part of her still wants to give a different answer, to lean into the offered closeness, despite how much the idea of someone caring about her still carries a vague sense of panic.
Holding her hands through this is a fucking trip, because she doesn't have to wonder if Glimmer really means it when she says she's not going anywhere. How much she wants them to stay close; how she'll give Ellie space if she just says the word. The sincerity is breathtaking, and Ellie feels raw with the gratitude and sheer relief that bleeds back through their connection.
Ellie may not always say much, compared to Glimmer. Especially about her feelings. But everything she feels, she feels it with her whole heart.]
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How much part of her still wants to give a different answer, to lean into the offered closeness, despite how much the idea of someone caring about her still carries a vague sense of panic.
Holding her hands through this is a fucking trip, because she doesn't have to wonder if Glimmer really means it when she says she's not going anywhere. How much she wants them to stay close; how she'll give Ellie space if she just says the word. The sincerity is breathtaking, and Ellie feels raw with the gratitude and sheer relief that bleeds back through their connection.
Ellie may not always say much, compared to Glimmer. Especially about her feelings. But everything she feels, she feels it with her whole heart.]
I'm not going anywhere, unless you want me to.