[Ellie can see the tremor in Glimmer's hand. Feel it when she grips her shirt, even though this has to be hard for her. Her stomach flips over and she feels more than a little sick. Even if this is terrifying it feels like Glimmer's ready to forgive her, without knowing. Just like that.

It's tempting to leave it here, to let her think that's all she did, but. The ache in her throat won't let her. Jesse's memory won't let her. Tommy's eyes and Dina's tears and all those sleepless nights.]

It was more than that. I was obsessed, and nobody could talk me out of it. I didn't stop. I couldn't.

[Ellie swallows again, staring up at the ceiling.]

They tortured Joel and killed him in front of me. So I did the same thing. I did worse. And I did it over and over again, even when it brought my friends into the line of fire.

[Ellie can feel the bile rising up the back of her throat, and has to stop.]