[Somehow, Ellie appreciates that Glimmer has the courage to ask, instead of dropping the subject. It makes her feel sick, looking back on it, thinking of it. She hadn't been... all there. Hadn't been right, at the time.
Ellie isn't sure that she's right now, or has been for a long while.]
No. I let her go.
[Ellie swallows back the lump in her throat. And because she doesn't want Glimmer thinking she's some kind of forgiving saint, she shuts her eyes.]
... I killed all the others, though. Her friends. Everybody who helped her.
[Ellie swallows again, and shuts her eyes. She might lose Glimmer. If she does, then maybe that's for the best, it happening like this. This early, before Glimmer puts her whole heart into this.
So she commits to it, like she committed to the acid. Like she's burning something away. Suspends her feelings.]
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Ellie isn't sure that she's right now, or has been for a long while.]
No. I let her go.
[Ellie swallows back the lump in her throat. And because she doesn't want Glimmer thinking she's some kind of forgiving saint, she shuts her eyes.]
... I killed all the others, though. Her friends. Everybody who helped her.
[Ellie swallows again, and shuts her eyes. She might lose Glimmer. If she does, then maybe that's for the best, it happening like this. This early, before Glimmer puts her whole heart into this.
So she commits to it, like she committed to the acid. Like she's burning something away. Suspends her feelings.]
Anybody who was in my way.