[Ellie shifts her chair -- the table is small, so when Glimmer reaches for her, it's not hard to move into reach. She wraps an arm around her waist, her fingers still returning Glimmer's tight grip. She tries her best to blank herself out and just -- just let herself feel it.
It's terrifying, opening herself up like this. Feeling all of this pain, all of this heartbreak, all of this self-recrimination and horrible guilt. Fear and failure, the desperation of being backed into a corner, of others not seeing how much she needs to do this, even if it's horrible and wrong, surely the ends will justify the means, she can't stop now, not when she's already come so far-
Ellie comes up breathless, trembling, her skin itching, her arm tight around Glimmer. She makes sure her fingernails stop digging into Glimmer's skin. Takes a deep breath, and lets it out. She doesn't let go.]
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It's terrifying, opening herself up like this. Feeling all of this pain, all of this heartbreak, all of this self-recrimination and horrible guilt. Fear and failure, the desperation of being backed into a corner, of others not seeing how much she needs to do this, even if it's horrible and wrong, surely the ends will justify the means, she can't stop now, not when she's already come so far-
Ellie comes up breathless, trembling, her skin itching, her arm tight around Glimmer. She makes sure her fingernails stop digging into Glimmer's skin. Takes a deep breath, and lets it out. She doesn't let go.]
... don't count yourself out yet. It's not over.