[ Despite it being her suggestion, Adora hesitates. But this is Glimmer. She trusts Glimmer with every fiber of her being. With all the messy emotions Adora is still struggling to sort and understand.
So she takes a deep breath and Glimmer's hand, fighting to stop the immediate uncontrolled flow of her emotions. They're all messy and tangled, hope and heartbreaking and shame all rolled into one.
She focuses instead on the last few hours, the lead up to everything. The pride she felt when looking at Catra after she apologized to Glimmer, then the panic and frustration of their argument over Adora's self-sacrificing tendencies. But it had led to something good, to a chance--
And Adora had been so painfully hopeful when she suggested a new promise. The closest she could get to I love you, stay with me without putting it into words, feelings Adora wasn't anywhere near prepared or self-aware enough to start untangling. She just wanted Catra, there, with her, for as long as possible. And for a fleeting moment, watching Catra's face, she'd thought she had it.
But with Catra's rejection comes a flood of emotion Adora couldn't hold back from Glimmer if she tried. The feeling of her heart shattering, the humiliating burn of rejection, the confirmation that Adora was so, endlessly stupid to even think she could have something like that.
For Adora it had been more than a gesture of friendship-- It had been the hope for a new beginning, an attempt to move forward from the pain she and Catra had put each other through.
She'd been scared to ask. Scared to want something for herself for the first time in her life, but willing to risk that, for Catra.
And in the end, all it had gotten her was a broken heart and rejected. ]
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So she takes a deep breath and Glimmer's hand, fighting to stop the immediate uncontrolled flow of her emotions. They're all messy and tangled, hope and heartbreaking and shame all rolled into one.
She focuses instead on the last few hours, the lead up to everything. The pride she felt when looking at Catra after she apologized to Glimmer, then the panic and frustration of their argument over Adora's self-sacrificing tendencies. But it had led to something good, to a chance--
And Adora had been so painfully hopeful when she suggested a new promise. The closest she could get to I love you, stay with me without putting it into words, feelings Adora wasn't anywhere near prepared or self-aware enough to start untangling. She just wanted Catra, there, with her, for as long as possible. And for a fleeting moment, watching Catra's face, she'd thought she had it.
But with Catra's rejection comes a flood of emotion Adora couldn't hold back from Glimmer if she tried. The feeling of her heart shattering, the humiliating burn of rejection, the confirmation that Adora was so, endlessly stupid to even think she could have something like that.
For Adora it had been more than a gesture of friendship-- It had been the hope for a new beginning, an attempt to move forward from the pain she and Catra had put each other through.
She'd been scared to ask. Scared to want something for herself for the first time in her life, but willing to risk that, for Catra.
And in the end, all it had gotten her was a broken heart and rejected. ]